Why are you avoiding ______?

The answer is that I’m not really sure why because its just happening. Maybe I’m letting little unimportant things get to me. She obviously cares about our friendship if shes willing to talk about the avoidance with other people. When you mix one little comment with moodiness the result is obviously my silent overreaction. Since I keep everything to myself this situation is probably confusing to her and I feel bad about it. At least now shes knows that “something” is going on even if that “something” is unclear.

I understand that you don’t have a car right now and life is a lot harder without it but that’s not my problem…its yours. When we’re on good terms and your willing to help pay for gas I’ll consider giving you rides but its not something you should just expect from me on a regular basis. Plus you don’t seem to be saving for a new car so what’s your plan little brother? To continue this cycle of using your family members as rides till this problem is magically solved by someone else?

I haven’t really been going out lately and its actually kind of nice because it gives me the whole day to work on my art. Not to say that my friend isn’t a fun dude to be around or anything…its just our meet ups require so much effort on my behalf since I’m the only one that drives. Then again he makes up for it in other ways like being the one who initiates things. Wait its not about him at all I just missed spending time in my room alone since I’m used to it. Hanging out with others isn’t the norm for me at all.

One of my coworkers was telling me a story when all of a sudden a certain someone decided to interrupt the conversation so that I would help her do something she could’ve done on her own. Basically sending a message that she just wanted to end our interaction for other reasons. Whenever the tables were turned it was okay but apparently its not in my case. Just a thought.

Quick Glee rant: Wasted screentime

Once again glee threw in a story about one of school’s staff members (Coach Beiste) and it always confuses me because I thought the show was supposed to be about the students? Just looking back at the series as a whole they’ve looked into Will’s divorce(something no one cared about), Sue’s sister dying, and Emma’s OCD for no real reason at all. You’d think that the actual glee club members would have enough going on within their lives for each episode. To sum things up the show sometimes focuses on characters who don’t matter…. and that’s what you missed on GLEE.

Last semester history exams were my downfall and this semester history seems to be repeating itself. Why? Because for some reason I’m still the person who chooses having fun over studying and it always screws me over in the end. Maybe its time for me to accept the fact that college is a lifestyle not something that ends in the classroom. I have to prove myself in this area so nows the time to do it. I’m doing this for myself and a better future.

Shower creeper

In the guys locker room at the Y there are public showers and private stalls(which my friend and I always use). Yesterday night during my shower I noticed someone entering the free stall next to mine and I thought nothing of it…until this older guy decided that he wanted to see me naked. So he looks up at me through the stall’s opening near the floor, with a grin until eye contact was made between us. At first a moment of confusion hit me since it was so unexpected then I backed away and covered myself. Within the next few minutes a towel landed in my stall then a hand was offered(on my side) so leaving was the best option at that point. How romantic of him I wonder how many people that technique has worked on….